There are 2 speeds fast and faster...life never stops...
I find myself these days running from pillar to post. Having five kids all stair stepped apart and all very different, I find myself sitting in my chair tearfully watching as they spread their wings. as a mom, I just relish in their own personal gains and they are making their own imprints in the world. I have always been a bit of an artsy fartsy, fly by the seat of my pants kinda gal, but since the teen years have hit, my best friend has become the calendar. I have my life scheduled, so much that I realize I have not a second for myself, and no time for relationships. I used to struggle with the word no, now its become a regular word in my vocabulary, so either I am growing ornery in my forty's or just tired of always putting out. This last week was one of non stop chaos....and to open a window to my life...you just can't make this stuff up...by the way...
The week began as usual dad flies to NYC, and girls start off to school on Monday, and the boys and I start our homeschool day. We headed to the library in town so they could work on their research papers. Yes, "Virginia, there is a Santa Clause", my boys were gonna learn how to find reference material in a library. It's been a few years since I did library research....heavens its been twenty years since I graduated college...so one can only imagine. I have been to the libray but merely to pick up a new book to read. I taught the boys how to use a card catalog before leaving home. I walked all over the library looking for the chest of drawers that held those cards...and the young girl, early 20's asked if she could help me, I replied.."where's the card catalog?" , she said, I will ask..?? Now my inner thought was you work in a library and you do not know where the card catalog is?? The librarian came over and said, she could help me on the computer, that defeated my purpose. I can use a computer, not a complete moron...meanwhile, the boys are loving this, because I said, they could not use computers to research...guess what the boys were doing, clicking away at the computer. We were successful and headed home with a stack of reference books.
I had my week down, Monday, Wed, and Thursday from 5 to 9 pm, I was gonna be at swim practice with boys. Practice is 6 to 7:30. I would drop boys off, continue on to Emory drop the girls off, return to pick up boys and swing back and pick up the girls. On Tuesday nights, our youngest son has basketball games. We jump in our Ford Expedition and drive 30 minutes to the gym and spend an hour or so watching a game, I do not understand. I get things done, amazingly...except my curve ball this weekend...my oldest is away at school and she was txting me about studying for finals. I texted back that I would be coming down next weekend to help her pack up her dorm room, and bring her car home so that after her last final she just will have a suitcase. She sent me a txt back ??? huh???, I repeated myself, and she says, mom, I am done Thursday...like in 3 days Thursday...I had plans yesterday, and they didn't include driving for 6 hours to gather pack and come home...all the promises I made were all broken. I scrambled to reshuffle my life on Sunday, and I candidly said aloud, 'There are just not enough hours in the day', and my 13 year old says 'mom, there are plenty of hours, it just matters how you use them...' ugh...i rolled my eyes..she is right though...I hated to admit it..
I suppose life will continue to move fast...and faster...but learning to find my way...in a new time in my life...write again soon...
The week began as usual dad flies to NYC, and girls start off to school on Monday, and the boys and I start our homeschool day. We headed to the library in town so they could work on their research papers. Yes, "Virginia, there is a Santa Clause", my boys were gonna learn how to find reference material in a library. It's been a few years since I did library research....heavens its been twenty years since I graduated college...so one can only imagine. I have been to the libray but merely to pick up a new book to read. I taught the boys how to use a card catalog before leaving home. I walked all over the library looking for the chest of drawers that held those cards...and the young girl, early 20's asked if she could help me, I replied.."where's the card catalog?" , she said, I will ask..?? Now my inner thought was you work in a library and you do not know where the card catalog is?? The librarian came over and said, she could help me on the computer, that defeated my purpose. I can use a computer, not a complete moron...meanwhile, the boys are loving this, because I said, they could not use computers to research...guess what the boys were doing, clicking away at the computer. We were successful and headed home with a stack of reference books.
I had my week down, Monday, Wed, and Thursday from 5 to 9 pm, I was gonna be at swim practice with boys. Practice is 6 to 7:30. I would drop boys off, continue on to Emory drop the girls off, return to pick up boys and swing back and pick up the girls. On Tuesday nights, our youngest son has basketball games. We jump in our Ford Expedition and drive 30 minutes to the gym and spend an hour or so watching a game, I do not understand. I get things done, amazingly...except my curve ball this weekend...my oldest is away at school and she was txting me about studying for finals. I texted back that I would be coming down next weekend to help her pack up her dorm room, and bring her car home so that after her last final she just will have a suitcase. She sent me a txt back ??? huh???, I repeated myself, and she says, mom, I am done Thursday...like in 3 days Thursday...I had plans yesterday, and they didn't include driving for 6 hours to gather pack and come home...all the promises I made were all broken. I scrambled to reshuffle my life on Sunday, and I candidly said aloud, 'There are just not enough hours in the day', and my 13 year old says 'mom, there are plenty of hours, it just matters how you use them...' ugh...i rolled my eyes..she is right though...I hated to admit it..
I suppose life will continue to move fast...and faster...but learning to find my way...in a new time in my life...write again soon...
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